Over the weekend, and leading into, I found myself battling the emotional uncertainties of progress. As I've written in my other blog post, "Work is a Magnet" and despite knowing this - the natural desire for measurable progress is still a continuous battle. While being engulfed in a space of my own mental disarray I found myself ignoring the many efforts I have put in to advance myself creatively, career-wise, and personally trading the acknowledgment of those things for self-doubt. Here's a very honest moment - often times the notable achievements only feel celebratory when they are attached to some form of notoriety. This way of thinking is not only inaccurate it is also blatant disrespect to the process of progress. It places the value of our worthiness, work, and purpose parallel to people's recognition of what we do. Thinking along those lines causes stifles and compromises our authenticity. Nonetheless, in our relatively new society, it is easy to be influenced by likes but life is a canvas.
The song that inspired this post, "Lost Queen" by Pharrell Williams played on repeat for me over the weekend. The lyrics in the latter part of the song, "You gotta go inward to experience the outer space that was built for you" served as a reminding mantra to the fundamental aspects and point of life. Our lives are created from our inward space. Life is a reflection of what we have envisioned, worked toward, and believed on. Everything, that is not nature, began in the mind. We are living in what I like to call a quilt of ideas. The biggest thing that is being lost in the throws of time is the connectivity to our inner space. So much is going on socially, economically, and globally that our inner space is taking a passenger seat to our highly distracted presence. That detachment from self-awareness allows us to be easily manipulated by external appearances and experiences. Self-doubt is a lot easier to encounter when you do not realize self-actualization is the frame of our perspective of reality. God has distinct and non-numerical time. God does not adhere to the simple vantage point of what is "seemingly" logical. For those of us who are manifesting works to be staples in the embed of history, what is logical is only a reflection of what has been achieved...what is possible is the paint provided to the painters of reality by God. Logic is redefined every time we extract a new piece of our inward existence and plaster it onto our life canvas. There is no immunity to feeling the natures of humanity. Everyone wants their ideas and work to be appreciated and impactful - and when creating authentically it will be. Yet first, we must remember it is our inward space that dictates how we react and interpret our outer space. As we go forward just the take time to remember the inward space is the paint brush for our outer space.
BTW - Once I put this thought process into practice over the weekend not only did things change for me from an emotional state but I encountered some great opportunities. I met a major player in a project I am pursuing - ACCIDENTALLY in a random place - I ran into a family member I had not seen in over 20 years, and I got great news about an upcoming advancement. Things are progressing & a quote I came up with is, seeds grow in the dark. Silence is not an indicator of lack and what we can't immediately see (outwardly) is not proof of absence. Work is always in progress and we can't fathom how intricately God is connecting dots.